drama. :)

i miss being a friend. :(

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these past few days, i feel like i'm a villain of some childish cartoon show. . .  wherein i got mad because i was jealous, threw all those times i felt happy with the world. i made myself believe i was alone. i made myself an emo inside. (yuck, joyce! totally kadiri!)

i never wanted to be the bad guy. i made everyone around me think i'm the good one. pointed my finger and put the blame on that person. i was out of control. my mouth didn't stop. 

now, i recalled the times i praised persons whole heartedly, trusted undoubtedly and find each and every good thing a person has despite his/her imperfections. i miss being that person.

i miss being the kind girl i was.  :(

i was driven by my wild emotions, wild imaginations, wild assumptions.

i don't know exactly what happened to me. but i'm sure that i was jealous at one point of time. i compared myself to others. i was obnoxious. i was annoying.

i think it's time for me to stop.

because i do want to change and return to how i was before. :D

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The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you.  ~Elbert Hubbard, The Notebook, 1927

One's friends are that part of the human race with which one can be human.  ~George Santayana

True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable.  ~Dave Tyson Gentry

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art.... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.  ~C.S. Lewis

True friends stab you in the front.  ~Oscar Wilde

Probably no man ever had a friend that he did not dislike a little.  ~E.W. Howe

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pasensya sa ka-dramahan ng post na ito. :D hehehehe.

viva la vida - live the life

hahaha, it's been soooo long since i last posted. and that last post was LAME! :D

anyway, i'm addicted to COLDPLAY's song, VIVA LA VIDA which. if translated to english, means LIVE THE LIFE. joyce likey! hahaha. :D

same as the older posts, the title does not have any connection to the real post. if you have noticed this a long time ago, i congratulate you. YAY! you are sooo smart, just like ME! kidding! :)

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the end of first quarter

*sigh* at last, tapos na din ang lahat ng may kinalaman sa first quarter except sa bigayan ng cards. WAAAH!

i hope the times when i go home late because of a class project ay maulit. though i was tired, stressed and life was sucked out of me, it was FUN. i learned more about my classmates. by more, i mean MOOOORE. hahahaha.

i was a bit irritated that time because of some internal conflicts but hopefully i'm over it na. yay for me! :D

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to me, a FRIEND is still a FRIEND no matter what happens.

i know i might have backstabbed them but i do hope they'll understand my reasons. such as i was tired, jealous, begging for attention, blah, blah . . . i do not intend to mention all of my flaws here. hahaha, :D

there were a lot on my mind lately. including internal conflicts. maybe i'm just paranoid over those things. pero, really. . . i feel guilty of not trusting my friends na. i don't know. i just felt something one day na, natanong ko din ang sarili ko, "WHO ARE MY FRIENDS?". i know my friends would feel bad about this, pero i really don't know talaga.

tapos pumasok din yung, "IF THEY ARE MY FRIENDS, ARE THEY REAL?". whooaa, saan nanggaling yun. then, na-recall ko yung mga times naaa.... SHH!

tama na ang drama, FRIENDS are still FRIENDS.

i have to accept them for who they are and what they are. i have to if i am a friend.

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i have thought of what i'll do with these remaining days of high school life. i'll make myself memorable. it does not have to be in a special kind of way. i want my classmates and schoolmates remember that once in their high school life, there was a JOYCE who became part of their day, who brought sunshine in their lives, who inspired them to do things, who made them smile. hahaha, kidding. let's change that.

there was a JOYCE, simply a joyce who was their classmate, who made wacky faces in any i mean in any time of the day, who would always be there when they needed help. :) yess, ang bait! hahahaha.

i know that i would not, really, forget my classmates. i do wish my brain would cooperate with me. :(

i promise to not waste any moment of life in school. i would let myself know them better, let them know me better, be closer to my classmates. be attached to my school. hayaan mo nang maiyak ako sa end, that would be better. mas masaya.

ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. ang bilis ng oras.

truly, ngayon pa lang, masasabi ko na mamimiss ko ng sobra-sobra ang mandaluyong science. ang pagpasok ng before 6.30 every monday, and pagkanta ng hymn, ang pag-recite ng panatang makabayan, si sir septimo, at ang mga OICs (bitter ba?!), ang mga teachers (kasama na ang mga tamad at di nagtuturo at nakakaantok), ang pagpasa ng scrapbook na naging notebook, pagpunta sa lab, mga programs, mga panlalait sa school mates at sa ibang years, pakikipag-away, mga classmates, baraha, bola, face paint, bulletin boards, white boards, reading nooks, di madaanang stairs, maduming cr, madugang canteen, mga kuya o ate manong o manang guards, ang maliit na gate, ang back gate, gummy worms sa labas, mga sigawan, habulan, iyakan, tawanan. dito naganap ang second growth ko. ngangawa talaga ako kapag tapos na ang high school life ko.

ENOUGH!

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CARPE DIEM - seize the day.

starting now, I'll really really seize the remaining days.

i'll live the life. the life of a batang mandsci.

yess! hahahaha. :)

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ang cheesy naman ng kinalabasan ng post na to. EWWW!

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-_- Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile. -_- Albert Einstein

-_- Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live. -_- Dorothy Thompson

-_- Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive. -_- Elbert Hubbard

*ponder*

school. :D

what i SHOULD be doing right now: talumpati (manuel quezon)

eh! ayoko nang mag-aral! hahahaha. :D

what i AM doing right now: slacking off. (e.g. eating, go telebabad, read countless mangas, sing like an oti) :D

what my future would be: . . . . . . . .

rawr! ayoko naaaaa. inaantok na ako. :(

SKA!

well, on boring summer days, usually my brother and i play around. i mean, we bond. yeah, we actually do that. hahaha. it would seem impossible for the two of us, but we both can't help it when he's so bored at watching movies and nba while i'm also tired of reading mangas.

so when it comes to times like these, we bond. well, it's just singing loudly together. kind of a duet. we thought no one really cared until our neighbors were actually complaining about our voices. you see, we're not that talented. we do really like music though.

we were ecstatic when we had an iPod, we downloaded songs we both loved and also songs the other one hates. pero, you know, mabilis kaming magsawa.

my brother then came across with the AQUABATS, randomly searching for unpopular band (well, here in our country, they're not). and i think that they play SKA MUSIC. i don't know anything about ska music, since it's like "unheard of". but when i heard their songs, WOW!! they're amazing! you can clearly hear the skillfuly playing of the drums! the bass was exceptionally outstanding! there were also some trumpets. . . that'd be weird but they sound nice with it! the lyrics were also quite funny but also filled with so much wisdom.

my favorite from them is the song "lovers of loving love". here're some of the lyrics.

" I'm so happy,
I'm so happy,
That I'm a boy and you're a girl alright"

"It's so hip
To give you a kiss
And taste cherry chapstick aaah" <-- CHAPSTICK! hahaha! LOL!

"I can't walk
Can't move
Because I'm paralyzed
By your love
And that's OK by me
I'm so happy
I'm so happy
It's real great
We're lovers of loving love"


my brother then searched for more after a few weeks. then, he found STREETLIGHT MANIFESTO. well, this is one great SKA band! their lyrics are soooo. . . . OOOH!
there are two that interested me, one is "A BETTER PLACE, A BETTER TIME" and "POINT/COUNTERPOINT".

the song "a better place. . . " talks about this guy who stops this girl from committing suicide. the girl thought that it was better for her to die since nobody would really ever care. she didn't feel like she was appreciated. no one would come to her when she needs help. no guy was in love with her so with the usual form, she put up a note on the mirror and decides to end her life. but then this guy gives her hope saying "it's not your time. i guarantee that you'll wake in a better place and in a better time."

these are the ending lyrics:

" when you wake up
everything is going to be fine
I guarantee that you wake in a better place
in a better time
So you're tired of living
and feel like you might give in
well don't
It's not your time

And even if it was so
Oh I wouldn't let you go
you could run run run run but I will follow close
Someday you will say 'that's it, that's all'
but I'll be waiting there with open arms to break your fall
I know that you think that you're on your own
but just know that I'm here
and I'll lead you home
if you let me
She said 'forget me'
but I can't"

the song "point/counterpoint" is fast. we couldn't really keep up with it. pero the lyrics are also awesome though i only understand it a bit.

just check it out na lang.

then, the last one probably the best, would be CATCH 22. we've only known one song from them and it's "1234, 1234". it's a 'cheer-up' song. so, it's nice.

probably, 1234 would be the first on my list for SKA SONGS followed by A BETTER PLACE, A BETTER TIME. or tie na lang siguro. pareho kasing maganda.

here're some of 1234:

"You, you try, you try to get by.
'You're never going to pull it off',
'You shouldn't even try'
'You're a wet cigarette',
'You're always second best',
but they're never going to give a shit about anybody but themselves.
So you fight for them to realize;
there's more to life,
there's more to you,
there's more than meets the eye.
And when you're done, the battle's been won.
You sit back, you smile and this is what you hum,
you hum: ....12341234.... "

this would be all for now, i'll put those songs up in here.

* hope my brother won't find out about this! ahhh, i'm so scared!!!*

watch PIANO NO MORI and TOKI WO KAKERU SHOUJO

watch piano no mori (piano in the forest?) and toki wo kakeru shoujo (the girl who leapt through time).

they're both on CRUNCHYROLL.com and parehas din silang maganda, lalo na yung TWKS. ganda, superrr. go, watch!

uhh, if you're really bored.. watch TAIYO NO UTA (sabi nung iba MIDNIGHT'S SUN daw pero SONG OF THE SUN talaga). watch this, you'll CRY.

alam mo, wala akong magawa. :D

hindi nga, wala talaga akong magawa. as in. super boring na ng buhay ko sa ngayon.

anyway, eto nonsense talaga. ngayon na lang ulit ako nagkasakit. akalain mo yon? wala na nga akong ginagawa, nagkasakit pa ako. yan tuloy, nasira ang daily routine ko.

oo nga pala, bumili si mama ng hula-hoop. wait, tama ba? ayun, sila ni daddy marunong at ako? ayokong i-try, NO WAY!

hahahaha.

actually wala naman talaga akong post na may sense eh, napansin mo ba? nyaha.

o sige, yun lang. next time na lang ulit.

nakaka-bwusit nga pala ang pagka-panalo ni DAVID COOK. alam kong magaling siya at mas nakatutuwa siya kesa kay ARCHULETA but ang prediction ko talaga since top 12, si DAVID A. ang mananalo. mula nung top 10, na-predict ko na ang finalists, at tama ako, sila ngang dalawa at ang hula ko'y si archu ang mananalo. ayun, nagkamali ako dahil sa 12,000,000 na taong nagkamali ng pindot ng numbers. ayun, BOOM!

sorry talaga dahil sa post na ito, nababangag na talaga ako. parang super low-life na tuloy ako. haay.

i'll really stop backstabbing people. :(

if you know that i have backstabbed you and you were offended (who wouldn't be?), i am TRULY SORRY.

karma's fast.

everyone backstabs, one way or another. backstabbing to me means i'm saying bad things about my precious FRIENDS behind their backs. but, if i really despise you eternally, can't help it, sorry hahaha. :D

i'm really sorry to this one person whom i think i've hurt very much, i'm too afraid to mention your name here though i know you seldom read my posts since it does not say much about important things.

so, i'm sorry.

magbabago na talaga ako. if i don't have anything good to say about that person, i'll just keep my mouth shut.

SORRY. really. :(