a stressful sembreak.

hahaha, this would be my second time posting about my sem break.

well, it's not really that stressful. much has happened and gladly, i'm still alive. our class was busy with practicing a performance on the december christmas concert. it was fun.

this week, i learned how to play MAHJONG!! yeah! it's so fun! then i got to go to divisoria with my classmates. we hunted for cheap materials for our costumes. that was fun too although at first i really didn't want to go because the weather is bad. well, all turned out well and we managed to buy some stuff for our costumes.

i love my section.

anyway, JOYCE now is not the time to go smiling and relaxing, you still have lots of work to do!! >:O

really, i'm still not collecting tin cans for our economics project. ate kim called me and she said they were talking about ditching the project. i don't know if it's true or not but it'd be great if it is. i haven't contacted my partner arlene for our mapeh report. then, i have calculus project. i haven't started 'cause i know i can't do it all by myself. i mean, it's HARD for me. :D

ahh, another thing. USTET. hahaha, this one was easy. much easier compared to UPCAT. the campus was nice. it's clean. the university may be old but not the buildings. cool school, lots of food stalls and restaurants. great place. :)

something's still missing with my sem break. i didn't get to meet with my former classmates at all. and i was planning to go to their houses and talk about stuff. i guess they're busy too. (pessimism) or they don't consider me a friend anymore. . . :(

hahaha, i don't think they'd do that. probably they're out of town.

ah! i didn't attend practice yesterday. parents were mad at me for always coming home late. and i was burning cash recently. >:D short on money.

my day was pretty boring. because i was kind of nagtatampo because they didn't allow me to go to the practice, i didn't take a bath until it was 10 in the evening or something. all i did was sit, read, watch and eat. maybe a little walk inside the house but i didn't clean. hahahaha! :) REVENGE!!

i got to watch DEATH NOTE 3: L - change the world. L LAWLIET, i love you!! :D

cool movie! a great watch if you've seen death note.

then, when i have finished watching, i read tons of shoujo mangas. hahahaha! :D that is the life.

i wonder what happened with practice kahapon. . . hmm, i heard from ate kim na napagalitan sila for whatever reason that was. what went wrong? hmm . . . :(

i'm gonna post another one tomorrow, probably. :D

there is no telling what will happen tomorrow. (?)

waha, drama na naman!

nyahahahaha. joke! :D

anyway, exam week na namin. ahh, patayan na naman ng brain cells! pero ayos lang, since siguro isa na ito sa mga araw na mag-eexam ako as a high school student.

ayun, actually dapat gumagawa na ako ng mapeh project pero tinatamad pa ako.

SEM BREAK: oo, may sem break kami. pero 1 week lang. hindi nga siguro ako magbabakasyon kasi mageensayo kami ng kanta at sayaw para sa concert (?) namin sa december 12. yess naman! hahaha!

hmm, ano na nga ba ang nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon? well, ganun pa rin. kain dito, kain doon. hahahaha. :D

masarap ang feeling na kilala ka ng lahat ng kaklase mo. di ka loner. nakakatuwa mga kaklase ko ngayon. UNPREDICTABLE ang mga reaksyon nila. at least minsan, MINSAN lang talaga, united kami. lalo na pagdating sa mga homeworks.

nakakatuwa talaga ngayong year kasi ngayon lang ako naka-experience ng notes na isesend sa iyo kasi naka-powerpoint o kaya naman through cellphones. nakanaks! ASSSTIG! tapos uso na sa amin ngayon ang hand-outs. di na kami nangangapang kumopya sa board. hahahaha.

ngayon ko lang din maramdaman ang kabang dadalhin ng MAPEH sa akin. ewan ko ba kung bakit ang reklamador ko. kasi 10 buhay ng tao ang kailangang memoryahin. nakakabaliw! :D

kontento na ako sa buhay ko ngayon. hahayaan ko muna yung mga nakakairita sa paligid. may panahon din sila sa akin.

anyway, magaling na OIC si sir zape. ang galing niya talaga! grabe! :D

may PERA SA BASURA nga pala kami. masaya to kasi nag-iikot kami sa bahay-bahay para manghingi ng hindi na ginagamit na papel, plastic bottles, karton. kung may tanso kayo diyan, bigay niyo naman. nag-iikot din kami sa lower years. new experience yun! pero hindi na bago sa akin ang kapalan ang mukha at magmakaawang humingi ng kung anu-ano. sanay na. hahaha. :D

masarap ang pizza kina rose anne. mura na, makapal pa ang tinapay. . . pati na ang KETCHAP.

hindi ko rin makakalimutan yung mr. and ms. mand sci kung saan publicly naming binully si PRANING. ewan, medyo irita talaga kami dun. boto ko talaga nung una sa shikaena (tama ba?!), pero nasarapan akong sumigaw ng arianne, almond! and hanga ako kay arianne, kaya ARIANNE ALMOND!

haay, masarap nga talagang maging high school student.

napag-usapan nga namin nung isang araw na last year na talaga namin to. wala nang balikan.
pagka-graduate. goodbye HS na talaga.

and talagang gusto kong sulitin tong time na to kasi alam ko na pag nag-college na, hiwa-hiwalay na talaga kami. (depende na lang kung tinadhana talaga kayo para sa isa't isa which is soooo impossible) mahirap nang tumawa kapag matagal kayong di nagkita. iba na ang mga uri ng jokes na tinatawanan niyo, iba na ang mga trip niyong words. yung mga pananaw sa buhay, mag-iiba yan panigurado. iba na ang mukha ng mundo sa lahat. hindi na magkakapareho ang tingin sa tao. baka hindi na malait ang ibang tao kasi naging banal na. eto ang pinakamatindi, either nahihiya o limot ka na nila. :(

mahirap kapag ganun. mahirap makipag-usap and eventually baka hindi na talaga mag-usap kasi nakakita na ng mas masaya, mas kuwela at mas may katuturang barkada.

nakakalungkot isipin pero ganun talaga. hindi na pare-pareho ang growth namin. yun ang sabi ng madre sa amin dati.

pero sana, hindi ko talaga malimutan lahat ng ginawa ko sa hayskul. ayoko talagang kalimutan at sana di rin ako makalimutan ng hayskul.

anyway, tama na ang drama. what's important is the present, right?!

drama. :)

i miss being a friend. :(

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these past few days, i feel like i'm a villain of some childish cartoon show. . .  wherein i got mad because i was jealous, threw all those times i felt happy with the world. i made myself believe i was alone. i made myself an emo inside. (yuck, joyce! totally kadiri!)

i never wanted to be the bad guy. i made everyone around me think i'm the good one. pointed my finger and put the blame on that person. i was out of control. my mouth didn't stop. 

now, i recalled the times i praised persons whole heartedly, trusted undoubtedly and find each and every good thing a person has despite his/her imperfections. i miss being that person.

i miss being the kind girl i was.  :(

i was driven by my wild emotions, wild imaginations, wild assumptions.

i don't know exactly what happened to me. but i'm sure that i was jealous at one point of time. i compared myself to others. i was obnoxious. i was annoying.

i think it's time for me to stop.

because i do want to change and return to how i was before. :D

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The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you.  ~Elbert Hubbard, The Notebook, 1927

One's friends are that part of the human race with which one can be human.  ~George Santayana

True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable.  ~Dave Tyson Gentry

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art.... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.  ~C.S. Lewis

True friends stab you in the front.  ~Oscar Wilde

Probably no man ever had a friend that he did not dislike a little.  ~E.W. Howe

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pasensya sa ka-dramahan ng post na ito. :D hehehehe.